There is a thief in my life. It is pain, and it steals away hours and days with no sign of remorse. Today was such a day. I had plans. I wanted to write, to take my kids to the pool, and to enjoy some down time after a week of long days and hard work.
Kim Bongiorno of Let Me Start by Saying posted a challenge in response to the Facebook trend of posting 5 pictures that you think make you look beautiful. She posted 5 pictures of herself that ranged from silly to sad and declared that in all of them, she is beautiful (and she was right). She challenged us to post a selfie right then and there, and see the beauty that is always inside, no matter what we look like. I started to, and in the middle of technical issues and obsessing over how jowly I now look in my 40s…it hit me. I had been getting crabby and nauseous, and the Thief snapped off my light switch before I could say “rescue med.”
I crawled into bed. My daughter came to my side and attached my TENS unit because my right arm was in agony. She brought me ice. She let me try to sleep, then she crawled into bed with me to rub my arm. I took a hot shower. Nothing – no relief. My son came next, spooning with me, suffering his disappointment about not going to the pool in silence. My daughter finished making dinner by figuring out how to cut up potatoes and add them to the crockpot. I gave her no direction, and they were perfect. After three hours, two types of medication, and these acts of love from my kids, I was able to sit up, chug my water, and sit outside to face another evening.
While I was in bed, grieving for my lost afternoon, I realized that I could still participate in Kim’s challenge. Just like she promised, we were still beautiful.